Despite living together for eight years, my spouse and I never considered signing a contract and continued putting it off. We had initially planned to be married, but we lacked the funds, so we moved in together and began our lives together. We made the decision to forgo spending money on marriage after realizing that it is not something we absolutely need.
In order to give us all the same last name, I had intended to stamp my passport when I became pregnant. However, every pregnancy I had regrettably resulted in a miscarriage, leaving me unsure of what to do. Since my husband is three years older than I am and I am thirty-five, the likelihood of a successful pregnancy was decreasing. I endured the three miscarriages for a very long period; my husband helped me, of course, but I got sick of going to hospitals, having in-depth exams, and hoping for a miracle.
I could never have imagined that my husband might betray me; I always thought he would be devoted to me till the end of our days. However, it did occur, and I was astounded. A new roommate moved into our home about a year ago. She was in her thirties and, in my perspective, rather attractive.
She occupied the apartment below ours. And if a different neighbor hadn’t informed me that this girl frequently allowed her spouse into her apartment, I never would have thought that she was interfering with our family’s happiness with her husband. He said he was just assisting her with repairs when questioned.
I chose to keep an eye on my husband and his possible lover since I had no reason to believe him, and eventually my suspicions were validated. I had no idea what to do and was utterly bewildered. I don’t want to live a life of loneliness, even though I can break up with him and throw him out of the house. When I finally saw her in person recently, by coincidence, she struck up a conversation with me.
She stated, “I won’t lie to you; we’ve been dating for six months, and everything with your husband is serious.” She claimed that I couldn’t have a child and make my husband a happy father since I was already too old, and that she could. I couldn’t believe it was real when I stood up and listened to her. I cried a little bit and ran home.
I was thinking all day after this chat. She is correct, but, I am powerless to help my spouse. All I’m doing now is getting in the way of his happiness and his chance to locate a whole family because I am unable to give birth. However, I came to the realization that I am this way, that no one else would marry me, and that if I were to divorce my spouse, I would be alone and hated. Does someone I love not love me back, though?Lost for words, I either wait for my husband to come clean and go, or I prepare myself for a discussion with him over a few days. I’ve made the personal decision to let him live without me and not hold onto him.
Though I can’t stop it from happening, it still hurts, and deep inside I hope my spouse will see sense and turn around to me.
